Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Day 8
My heart is growing deeper in tune with my True Love. I just want to live for my Love. I want to honor and glorify Him with all I am. I am learning trust and perseverance. On a sidenote, we are accountable before marriage too. All the days of your life.
Monday, May 30, 2011
Day 2 Preparation
The very day I feel utterly alone and like I will never find someone who loves me enough to spend a lifetime with me is the very day the man who held my hand as I weeped over my dying granfather's bedside confessed his love for me. That moment at my grandpa's side was the memory I am constantly reminded of when I read Psalm 34. Those words echo in my mind and the deepest crevices of my heart. That cannot be a coincidence how that very passage is what I posted yesterday. Talk about bringing back the past.
Today I had an enormous decision to make. Which was between denying myself and continue waiting on God's perfect timing or to pursue immediate relief from waiting on God and choose to go against His will for my life during this time. I realized I am not ready to promise my life to someone until I can be content with Christ's love alone. Also, in order to serve and encourage my brothers and sisters in Christ I cannot be with attached to anyone. One of my dear friends is taking a challenge to surrender earthly love and dating for 6 months. I personally don't believe in dating after searching scriptures and trying to figure out God's will and direction for marriage. I learned how careful one has to be and that unless it honors and benefits God's kingdom better together than apart than there is no reason to marry someone. With not marrying someone, I add to that not dating them either because dating should not be about temporary satisfaction and selfish pursuits of happiness, but rather the prayerful pursuit of finding a person to spend your life with. Also, I have a problem with the term DATING. Dating according to one persons definition may not be the same in another's eyes. I personally lean more to the idea of courtship because it is known to traditionally have multiple checks and balances with boundaries and accountability. I will be the first to admit that I have failed many times in my pursuit of a lifetime partner, but have slowly repented (which means to turn away from) of my former ways.
Today I had an enormous decision to make. Which was between denying myself and continue waiting on God's perfect timing or to pursue immediate relief from waiting on God and choose to go against His will for my life during this time. I realized I am not ready to promise my life to someone until I can be content with Christ's love alone. Also, in order to serve and encourage my brothers and sisters in Christ I cannot be with attached to anyone. One of my dear friends is taking a challenge to surrender earthly love and dating for 6 months. I personally don't believe in dating after searching scriptures and trying to figure out God's will and direction for marriage. I learned how careful one has to be and that unless it honors and benefits God's kingdom better together than apart than there is no reason to marry someone. With not marrying someone, I add to that not dating them either because dating should not be about temporary satisfaction and selfish pursuits of happiness, but rather the prayerful pursuit of finding a person to spend your life with. Also, I have a problem with the term DATING. Dating according to one persons definition may not be the same in another's eyes. I personally lean more to the idea of courtship because it is known to traditionally have multiple checks and balances with boundaries and accountability. I will be the first to admit that I have failed many times in my pursuit of a lifetime partner, but have slowly repented (which means to turn away from) of my former ways.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Day 1 of Preparation
Psalm 34
"1I will bless the LORD at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth.
2My soul shall make her boast in the LORD: the humble shall hear thereof, and be glad.
3O magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt his name together.
4I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.
5They looked unto him, and were lightened: and their faces were not ashamed.
6This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him, and saved him out of all his troubles.
7The angel of the LORD encampeth round about them that fear him, and delivereth them.
8O taste and see that the LORD is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him.
9O fear the LORD, ye his saints: for there is no want to them that fear him.
10The young lions do lack, and suffer hunger: but they that seek the LORD shall not want any good thing.
11Come, ye children, hearken unto me: I will teach you the fear of the LORD.
12What man is he that desireth life, and loveth many days, that he may see good?
13Keep thy tongue from evil, and thy lips from speaking guile.
14Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace, and pursue it.
15The eyes of the LORD are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry.
16The face of the LORD is against them that do evil, to cut off the remembrance of them from the earth.
17The righteous cry, and the LORD heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles.
18The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.
19Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the LORD delivereth him out of them all.
20He keepeth all his bones: not one of them is broken.
21Evil shall slay the wicked: and they that hate the righteous shall be desolate.
22The LORD redeemeth the soul of his servants: and none of them that trust in him shall be desolate."
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